It’s my opinion that like if a white supremacist/Nazi is going to be reformed. They need to do so willingly. The only times I’ve heard of successful rehabilitation of fascists is when they made the conscious decision to no longer be one anymore and seek atonement. People who try to like hug and change fascists that don’t want to change are fucking morons
Correct. I was crypto-facist for a few years, and the people trying to hug me didnt change me because at that point I wouldnt have listened. It was only when I started to see the movement for what it was that I was finally able to listen.
I’m not derailing your addition but I’m horrified you’re only 18. When did you become a fasc?
Yeah trust me it *is* horrifying. I’m ashamed of who I was and I think my only atonement is to talk about how damn easy it is to become one when you’re young.
This is gonna be a long post.
For a little bit of background, I am a mixed race person, half brown and half white. I was raised in a Muslim family and am still closeted around them.
I started to have issues with Islam at around 12 or so, when I first started to get the idea that I might be gay. Now I never would have admitted that was my reason. If you had asked me I probably would have said “logic” or something. Because of that I went hard into atheism and atheist circles.
Now people hate to admit this but ex-Muslim spaces are predominantly right wing. Ex-Muslims often see the left as “too tolerant” towards a religion that hurt them. This was the only community I had though, and I read through everything. I was 13.
The other thing that people hate to admit is that, especially when you’re young, being mixed race is so damn hard. If I acted “too white”, following my mother’s German/Austrian traditions, I was accused of hiding my true nature. But if I acted “too brown” I was just another camel jockey. So I hid my “Indian” customs from others and tried passing as white. Especially online.
So I’m not saying this is all youtube’s fault or anything. I was raised to believe that the brown half of my family was lesser and stupid. And with my hatred of Islam, I believed it doubly.
Then came Anita Sarkeesian. I was watching pewdiepie and from there my recommendations were all set. If I’m remembering the pipeline it was pewdiepie - Philip Defranco - Chris Ray Gun (sp?) - Thunderfoot - Sargon - etc. But I was pretty much acquainted with all of the right wing youtube of the day.
Funnily enough, I found her through Thunderfoot. That got me into antifeminism, and more specifically, GamerGate.
I was primarily on the subreddits KIA (Kotaku In Action) and TIA (Tumblr In Action). Both made fun of the SJWs. I kid you not, I would gleefully wait for “Sanity Sunday”, where the people would talk about how feminism is disgusting, cultural appropriation is fake, the wage gap isnt real, etc. I would scroll through this tag for hours.
I got most of my youtube recommendations from those subreddits. This led me from GamerGate to more fascist lines of thinking, such as watching videos about why BLM is a terrorist organization, why all muslims were evil rapists, and why I was fundamentally right to reject my Indian heritage and follow my “correct” heritage.
From here I delved into “race realism”, and I believed it all. I had to. This was the only community I had felt safe in. One of the fash guys even offered to shack me up at his house if my parents kicked me out for being atheist. I was 15.
To say that again, I was 15 and believed that white was right, blue lives matter, “we wuz kangs”, etc. I never would have called myself a fascist or a Nazi. How could I? I used my brown skin as a token, so that people could point to me and say: “See, we aren’t misogynistic and racist! We have this brown girl right here.” But I believed in all the things the Nazis did. I’m not going to pretend I didn’t. I will never pretend I didn’t.
But then something happened. I admitted to myself, and to a few others, that I was gay. And suddenly, the homophobia that I had molded myself in, it didn’t fit right. I happened to, by accident, click on the reddit thread of GamerGhazi, the opposition to GamerGate. And after a long bout of introspection I found out that they were accepting of gay people, that the things I had been experiencing were common, that maybe, just maybe, we didn’t need a white ethnostate.
I don’t want to be dramatic but that accidental click saved my life.
From there it was a road of recovery. I deleted all my old accounts, made new ones, and started to read leftist theory. I found better friends, cut out old people. So now, just about two years later, I’m healing.
I think that’s everything. I probably got some times and dates wrong because I’ve been trying to move on from it. But if you need more info or anything like that, please let me know.
Hi my name is Flandre Scarlet and I have long blonde hair and blood covered fangs (that’s how I got my name) with a side ponytail that reaches my mid-back and beautiful rainbow crystal wings and a lot of people tell me I look like Rumia (AN: if u don’t know who she is get da hell out of here!). I’m related to Remilia Scarlet and I’m happy I am because she’s a major fucking hottie. I’m a vampire but my teeth are straight and white. I have pale white skin. I’m also a danmaku duelist, and I live in a magic land called Gensokyo in Japan where I’ve been locked in a basement for 495 years. I’m a magical girl (in case you couldn’t tell) and I wear mostly frills. I love my maid and she buys all my clothes for me. For example today I was wearing a red doll dress with a matching hat with a matching ribbon on it, and white socks and cute red shoes. I was walking outside the Scarlet Devil Mansion. It was snowing and raining so there was no sun, which I was very happy about. A shrine maiden stared at me. I clenched my fist at her and she exploded.
Hi my name is Flandre Scarlet and I have long blonde hair and blood covered fangs (that’s how I got my name) with a side ponytail that reaches my mid-back and beautiful rainbow crystal wings and a lot of people tell me I look like Rumia (AN: if u don’t know who she is get da hell out of here!). I’m related to Remilia Scarlet and I’m happy I am because she’s a major fucking hottie. I’m a vampire but my teeth are straight and white. I have pale white skin. I’m also a danmaku duelist, and I live in a magic land called Gensokyo in Japan where I’ve been locked in a basement for 495 years. I’m a magical girl (in case you couldn’t tell) and I wear mostly frills. I love my maid and she buys all my clothes for me. For example today I was wearing a red doll dress with a matching hat with a matching ribbon on it, and white socks and cute red shoes. I was walking outside the Scarlet Devil Mansion. It was snowing and raining so there was no sun, which I was very happy about. A shrine maiden stared at me. I clenched my fist at her and she exploded.
so someone just said they’re “really interested in history” how careful do you have to be?
“i just think history is interesting in general! i’m not interested in any specific part of it”: this person is most likely safe. never drop your guard though
“i’m interested in this specific subject or time period in history. (ex. ancient egypt, the golden age of piracy, the history of the printing press”: still probably safe. be on the lookout for certain risky historical subjects. you should know them you see them
“i’m really into WW2 history”: this is the caution zone, there’s plenty of valid reasons to be into WW2, but if they start talking about how Operation Sealion totally could have succeeded, it’s time to abort
“i’m specifically into roman history, the crusades, prussian military history, and WW2”: danger! do NOT talk about history with this person. in fact, do not talk to this person at all. you will regret it, you do not want to know what they think of the treaty of versailles or why germany lost the first world war
i cant believe zeldas out here knowing everything about the wildlife and flora of hyrule and constantly talks about experiments and science and even asks link to eat a live fucking frog and y’all are like “ahh… shes such an elegant, graceful and proper princess :)”
zelda eats DIRT. shes a scholar and scientist and shes dedicated to knowing everything about hyrule and you bet your ASS that involves geography and she LICKS ROCKS. she keeps lizards and frogs in her POCKETS.
NPCs in Botw don’t give a shit huh. “oh that in the background? The apocalypse. Anw let me tell you about these cool bugs I have”
Okay, but, like: as somebody who grew up post 9/11 in America (I was something like 3 or 4 when it happened), the idea of America being in conflict has just become an integrated part of my life. I don’t remember the time before the conflict, this is just how it’s always been, and that’s less than 20 years of this being the state of things. I never stop to question “hey, is it normal to constantly hear about veterans missing limbs? My neighbor’s son is MIA, I guess this is just a thing that happens?”.
So, it’s perfectly reasonable that, after 100 years of dark shadow horror, blood moons, and monsters attacking on trips, it’s just a way of life. Like, ride fast horsey, hope you don’t get attacked by monsters with fast horsey, ignore impending doom of deathly doom castle over yonder, this is normal. Oh, a land that was peaceful, and regular people lived happily around the castle? That’s just a story grandma used to tell, it’ll never be like that again.
